Writing with the Universe

I have always had a lot of voices in my head. Maybe I’m what society would classify as an “overthinker”, a “worrier’, maybe even “crazy in the head”! I have always been an “over-feeler” too (empathic, clairsentience, clairaudience & claircognizance). They kind of fed each other as I grew up. I just thought this was normal & I had no other reason to think otherwise. I think I found peace in the quiet. I remember as a teenager lying in bed trying to quieten the voices in my head by imagining I was painting my mind with white paint. Sometimes it took a lot of layers. I had no idea what I was doing. Often this was the only way for me to get to sleep.

Some of my very close family members were “gifted” & would dream visions & talk to the para-normal & even see ghosts/lost souls as plain as seeing you or me as living beings. We only talked about it occasionally as I got older It was like the subject was just dropped into the conversation when you least expected it, so you did not really know how to react. I think the thought of it all scared me – how could a person cope with over-feeling & over-thinking about the unknown, as well as the known? Now, of course, I have 1000’s of questions I would LOVE to ask!

In my 20’s, one of our then young sons started to see “the children running around the trees” near our home. I could not see them, but what I knew, was to just accept this & move on in life. Try to live without focusing too much on it.

This is a very small window from my past into the connection that is always there, around us & within us, even when we have no idea what is going on.

It took me many years after this to finally “wake up” & become universally aware. When I look back now, I can see there were SO many nudges & hints letting me know that “THE UNIVERSE IS HERE & WAITING”

Bringing up 3 children under 3, took the next best part of 20 years (ha-ha) & I would not have changed a thing. I LOVED that time SO much! But there was very little time for me. You get lost in your everyday routine from sunup to sundown.

Like some people I would occasionally get curious about life & visit a few Clairvoyants. The last one told me “Every message I get is “the Universe is waiting for you”.  What are they waiting for? I did not understand what I must do.

Eventually life takes a turn that changes everything (mind you, our life has taken MANY turns, loops & zigzags) One evening while at our favourite beach spot, I sit in the dark with the breeze coming through onto me & I am tired within, but not physically tired (this is a feeling I understand), & I just sit & breathe & sit & breathe. No intention. I’m not meditating (what I thought was meditating) I just sit in the quiet & breathe.

I find that that I can JUST BE in this space. No pressure. I just breathe  …………. After a while, I hear words in my head & they repeat & repeat until I eventually find a pen & paper & write them down. Then I sit again & the words have gone. I breathe & sit ………. & as the breeze comes through to me, so do more words. “This is strange” I remember thinking, but I write them down & continue. I have never been much of a writer. After a while in this space, I had written my first piece of writing, “The First Moment” with the help of Universe (although I did not realise this at that time). I was astounded! I remember showing my family the next morning & explaining what happened. We acknowledged it & went on with our day. I had no idea what was coming next.

Within a few months I was waking almost every night with words running through my head. I had to get up & write them all down. There was definitely no ignoring them or getting back to sleep. I also wrote whenever I had a quiet moment during the day. The words were just flooding in. I had so much writing that I did not even have time to reread it. I still have not re read it all! My head was now busy in another way, but it felt right. I could hear the “right” voices, but I needed to learn to quieten my surface chatter more so that I could hear what I really wanted to listen too in there. So, for 2 years, I kept my breathing practice up. I would get up at 4am & spend this time with just me & the universe. Sometimes I wrote in a sort of meditative trance & sometimes I travelled to communicate with other beings. I learnt who I am & where I originated from & why I am here on Earth at this time. It was a lot to take in & digest & no doubt many of you may think this strange, but for me it was like finding missing jigsaw pieces. It all began to make sense. I became grounded, more balanced & harmonised within & without, I understood SO much more.

 I had finally found what it was that I had been unconsciously seeking. This journey of course, continues but I now know what I need to do.

So here I am, WRITING WITH THE UNIVERSE, being in flow with the love, light, energy & the vibration of all that is, sharing with you the words & the universal life force of Reiki. I am here to support you on your journey.

& I have SO much to share.

Much love & gratitude